Last night after I got into bed I felt tears leak out from my eyes and was surprised to find myself crying, although once I realised, I stopped. There has been stress in my life that I push down and away as I choose not to live with stress anymore. Stress makes my ability to find words to talk in any fluent way, and my memory dysfunctional.
I received a “Compromise Agreement” from my work with regards my not being fit to work indefinitely and finishing my employment. I think Compromise is pushing it and a total misnomer!
Right here is the rub; my Doctor has said I can no longer work, I am still employed but off sick: therefore it would make sense that work dismiss me on the grounds of no longer being able to fulfil my contract of employment. I WANT to be released from work, but need to apply for sickness benefit because I still have to have nearly three years before I receive my state pension and need to be dismissed/or let go to do that.
Work however, appears to be terrified that I will take them to a tribunal for unfair dismissal so have constructed a legal document that is 8 pages long and requires an additional signature of a Solicitor to say I understand it. I can no longer work because of Early Onset Alzheimer’s which is never going away and will get worse over time; I SIMPLY WANT TO FINISH WORK….
Of course I am not going to sign such a hideously gagging document when I have no need to, but it has stressed me out that ending my working life seems to be such a difficult thing to do.
Next, I see that I have only received a small amount of sick pay, what is going on? Why are my employers so inept in sorting it out. I did not want to use my Union Solicitor but may have to.
I cried because of the exasperation of the knowledge of having Alzheimer’s in the first place, and the stress of not understanding why it is so difficult to finish work.
So I will take my own advice and ignore them.