Having made lots of Christmas Cards, I knew that at some point I would have to write out my own to send to my family. My dilemma is which card do I sent to who? Of course it should be such an easy thing to do as I like all of the cards I have made, but, I had this thought that different people would prefer different pictures and I had no idea what they would like. Does it matter? No of course not but I find making an informed decision a little harder than it used to be.
My sister sent me a text message on my phone asking my address to send a card to! Just like that, nothing warm or friendly about the message just what is my address. She is my sister for goodness sake, and at 62 has had enough years to at least follow where I am seeing as I have lived here in the marina for 2 years! I couldn’t help myself and answered that it is “the same as last year”.
I think I am losing Christmas in my head. I have no desire to celebrate it other than spend it in London with my daughter cooking dinner together and then sitting down and enjoying each others company. I no longer want to take part in the commercial side of the holiday season. I am beginning to believe that only gifts that are hand made should be exchanged, and that every person should give a real gift to some one or some cause that it would make a real difference to.
However, how do I tell my family who I have seen only twice in two years and who never contact me by phone or letter, that I no longer feel any connection other than by birth. I have no desire for presents or meaningless cards or letters that read like a 7 year old, an adult letter would be nice once in a while. I will have lived on my boat four years next May and not one person from my family has ever expressed a wish to visit me.
Back to writing Christmas Cards.