Bizarrely I have developed an obsession with counting fingers and toes. I know a bit weird eh! It’s just that when I see a picture of people or animals hand or feet, they look like they have far too many digits on them! This is only when I see pictures mind you, not real hands or feet, or I don’t think so…no, I don’t usually focus on peoples hands..but I do focus on cats paws now I come to think it!
What is this about eh? I can’t just think ‘that’s a nice ordinary looking pair of feet’ , I actually have to count the toes, or fingers.
Some might say, what a load of rubbish, what has this got to do with Dementia. Answer, probably nothing, I have no idea. I do know that I have not spent my life counting fingers and toes and this is new to me, this compulsion. Why I thought to write about it was because it made me think of fiddle blankets.
It makes me wonder whether the change in the brain that makes some people with dementia more comfortable with keeping their hands busy with buttons and ribbons and the such like has any link to me needing to confirm that what I am seeing (fingers and toes) is just fooling me into thinking there are more. Okay I understand that it could be more to do with anxiety but that’s not how it feels to me. I don’t feel anxious about it, just curious about the illusion that I am seeing more than what is real.
So, I still have no idea why this has become something of a ‘thing’ for me right now but I think I might make myself a fiddle blanket for my future and maybe put some fingers and toes on it to count!!
Dementia is more complex than most people realise.